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Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Empty....

I have nothing to say...to anyone. I can listen to what you're saying and if I catch it I may respond...but I really just feel empty. I have no desire to talk...or listen for that matter. I just want to sleep....or not. My dad has given up. He said he's done. I'm ok with that, so I don't know why I feel this way. Could it be that I might be pregnant. I bought the test but haven't taken it. I have a head ache all the time, I'm nauseous all the time, and I just feel...off. Will my second set of twins be biologically related? Why can't I just do things normal....I don't want to do this in a big way. I've never done anything the normal way. When I left home, I went to Germany, when I got pregnant I had twins, when I married, I eloped right before he left for Iraq. I've never done anything in a small way...it's always a production. My aunt Luann and my sister always say that life changed forever when I came home...I didn't mean to change things...it's just how it happened. So if I am pregnant...what does that mean? Am I excited? Yes. Am I ready to be pregnant again? NO! Do I even think that I am? No, probably not. I'll keep you posted...

1 comments:

Sarah said...

You're in my thoughts and prayers.