Friday, May 25, 2012

I should rename this blog!

The title of my blog (Diabetes, Loss and Adoption) no longer fits what I write about. I rarely mention Lane's diabetes...mainly because it's such a small aspect of our every day life. To put that much thought into it is exhausting and instead of focusing on that, I choose to focus on other things...better things. Loss...? well I don't believe we've "lost" Braden...we know right where he is, waiting for us in glory! And Adoption...well adoption is no longer the goal and foster care is no longer a means to an end. We don't know where we're headed. We have no "goal", no desired end result...just a path, and right now our path is raising 3 incredible men and listening for God's call. That being said, he is pushing us out of our comfort zone! You see, we just got a call to do respite care...for 2 of these boys is older than I agreed to be licensed for. The only reason I'm agreeing to this placement is because Todd is home full time with them and it is short term. We will set up rules and a schedule so that there is no opportunity for funny business but I am nervous that our caseworker will continue to push us out of our comfort zone. I must stand my ground though for long term placements.